5/19/2026
I'm on burnout mode, and have been for quite possibly the past two years.
I don't know why the exhaustion and tension is hitting me so bad this year. I feel like I'm on edge, waiting for something to happen. I have the kind of headache you develop when you don't sleep well, but I've been sleeping perfectly fine at night. I just go to bed exhausted and wake up exhausted. I'm all wound up and in some kind of fog. Old hurts and regrets are coming back into my life. Nostalgia is the mind killer, and it's killing me right now.
Yesterday, I had a call with my uncle because I wanted his advice on what therapist to reach out to. Earlier than that, I was talking to a friend about getting back on Vyvanse, which I had stopped taking years ago because I foolishly believed my ex-fiancé about not needing them. I won't go into it, because I know I'll spiral out of control again and I'm in the middle of a Zoom meeting while typing this. Every Aries I know has been feeling the same kind of fuckery.
I don't even know the point of the post. My mind hurts. My head does, too.